Monday, July 28, 2014

34 Weeks Pregnant

Yep i was hitting a deep belly laugh and the kids are behaving looking at the camera :| 
So I am 34 weeks, which means I have 6 weeks to go in this pregnancy, and I cannot say that I am not anxious for this time to fly by and this baby to get here already. Not only am I over being pregnant, my hips spreading, my ribs feeling like they are being shattered, and just the general discomfort; I am also super anxious to meet my new baby. I can't wait to smell that new baby smell, to kiss his tiny little fingers and toes, to breastfeed and have him all snuggled up against my body, and to be able to finally tell him face to face how much I love him. 

I'm excited to see how the twins react to their little brother. They both love lifting up my shirt and kissing my belly and pulling on my now super outie belly button; the one that they helped create, when they first made my belly their home. King has seemed very attached to his baby brother since the beginning of this pregnancy, while Ky seemed distant and uninterested for the most part. Now they both seem to be on the same page of wanting baby to get here. 

I am more tired by the day. Some days I really don't know how I get out of bed and kind of get on with my day. I would like to say a hearty 'God Bless You' to all pregnant women, especially those with other littles that need taking care of, because this being pregnant with toddlers thing is no joke.

I swear God has really been on my side, giving me His strength, His refuge, and His grace, because the homestretch of this pregnancy has been pretty rough. I was having extreme left leg pain a couple of weeks ago and noticed that there were some lumps that were incredibly painful to the touch on my inner thigh. I went to see my midwife and came to find out that I have a blood clot in one of my superficial veins, and varicose veins on my calf and shin which are also painful. Just a whole lot of leg pain going around. Thankfully there is nothing life threatening or dangerous about these conditions for either baby or I, it just hurts like nobody's business. So I am ready to pop this baby out when he is done cooking of course.

I've also been super busy because I started online classes with Southern New Hampshire University about a month ago and it is kicking my butt to actually have to use my brain. I only have about 17 more credits before I will receive my Sociology degree but it seems like so much more.  

All prayers and encouragement will be gladly accepted! The countdown to baby is on!

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Wednesday, July 2, 2014

They Have a Mind of Their Own

My kids do what they want.
They don't like clothes, so they don't wear them. They like to go outside completely naked and I let them, because why not? I have attempted potty training, and it was like trying to corral two wild naked animals who pee at the drop of a dime, without warning on every free, and not so free surface; so I have taken a break on that. They like to climb the forbidden places like the TV stand, and then scoot down behind it and freeze, as if them remaining absolutely still will make them invisible to my ever present mom eye. They like to try and explain themselves or ask questions in the best English they know how to speak, and they love to repeat the 10 words that they do know really well, over and over, especially Ky. To him, everything is hot, if it's cold its hot, if it is hot its hot; and it is so adorable.

They like to discover and figure things out for themselves, fight over random things and then kiss and make up. They shower me with constant love and affection, making me feel like there is nobody on earth who is better than their mama, besides daddy of course. They have very strong and distinct personalities and are both head strong in their own ways. King is an absolute mama's boy to his core and I can't say that I don't love that. Ky is a mama's boy on his own terms, and he loves to emulate and copy his dad. If daddy is getting dressed then Ky has to get dressed too, even though he never stays dressed for long.

The fact that they have their own personalities and minds has been both my constant source of delight and a constant challenge, as I watch and help them grow and learn and develop into even bigger tiny little humans. I have noticed that the challenges of motherhood has made my love for my children, and being a mother, deepen; because there is so much growth and joy in the parts of motherhood that get kind of crazy.

The victories and sweet moments become so much sweeter when they are weighed against how precious and fleeting the time is that your child is truly a child. It helps me keep it all in perspective and not lose my mind when the boys rip their diapers off and poop on the carpet, and this perspective is what makes me stand in their room by their cribs watching them sleep at night with a heart so full of love for them that it physically hurts. They are their own little people, and mama is so proud.

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