Wednesday, October 15, 2014

I Am Evolved

There is this woozy, slightly shocked, dream like feeling that overtook me after the birth of baby Simba. This feeling is what caused me to replay, and talk about, the labor and birth of my 3rd child, over and over and over again. 

I had a csection with the twins and was able to successfully vbac with baby Simba. I was in labor with no cervical change for 3 days before I birthed him. It was painful. So very painful, and yes I caved and had an epidural at the very end, because I was so exhausted and needed some relief to try and rest, before I began pushing. Looking back on it I kind of wished I didn't get one because I feel like it slowed my pushing down.

He was born with the slight help of a vacuum, even though I think the vacuum was more for my midwives peace of mind, because I feel like I pushed sooooo hard to get him out that I did it all by myself. Plus I want all the credit :).

The process of labor and birth transformed me in ways I can't begin to describe. I feel empowered. I feel whole. I feel accomplished. I feel like labor was a spiritual experience that was so wonderful I wouldn't mind experiencing it again 4-5 years down the road. I felt like a goddess foe trusting my body to go through the birthing experience. I feel evolved.

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